Help me.

I regret everything I did and everything I didn't do too. I've been regretting it since forever. I want to make things better. I want to mend what perhaps I broke. I don't want to be alone anymore. I want to remember you through others, not all by myself. I want to share all the feelings I have locked inside me. Help me to recover what I lost. Help me to understand and be understood. Help me to wake up my soul and give everything to people, even though they give me nothing back. Help me to be myself again. Help me to get them back. Help me to get back to you. 

Talk to me!

I still don't know if you can read this... if you hear me when I talk to you at night... or if you heard me when I went to your new home the other day. Are you still my friend? Do you miss me as much as I miss you? I don't know how else I can tell to you that I regret everything I said the last time we talk here... I've told you so, but I don't know if you've listened. What else should I do? Talk to me, please.