Stupid.

I'm stupid. Stupid and pathetic. I was about to say that I miss you, and that I wish you were here so I could tell you all what I suffer. Then, less than a second later, I realized that even with you here I wouldn't say anything related to it. I've always had this strange feeling that nobody would believe my hurts are real. That my heart hurts once in a while, for no reason at all. But even though, I wish you were here, at least to forget what I'm feeling right now. Love you always.

Lonelier.

Today I feel lonelier than ever. It has been said that one's love cannot be one's friend at the same time... but besides him, I have no friend in the whole world. Today I realized that if I lose him, I lose all the little friendliness I have. And there is when I miss you. At least you counted as a friend, because even when we barely spoke in the end, I know you would have listened to me if I asked you so. Or maybe I just miss you because I have nobody else to miss. I really would like to see you again... to dream about you once... to have the opportunity to talk to you and tell you all the things I regret. I really would like to know if you still consider me your friend... I miss you so much.